When I get Rich....

I want to have a beautiful high rise apartment in a killer city with elegant furniture. I have come across WestElm. They are a store that offers crisp clean accessories so gorgeous that it makes my heart ache.

Unless I win the lottery or marry a weathly man I will never experience beauty of owning these things. As for now I will window shop and keep dreaming.

Oh Heck Yes!

I JUST BOUGHT MY KINGS OF LEON TICKET. THEY ARE COMING TO RUPP ARENA OCTOBER 10TH. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO PUMPED FOR ANYTHING...EVER. HOWEVER ITS FOREVER AWAY AND I JUST WISH I COULD SEE THEM TONIGHT. I HAVE GENERAL ADMISSIONS FLOOR TICKETS. I WILL DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO BE FRONT AND CENTER. A CHANCE TO HAVE MY FINGERS RUNNING THROUGH THEIR HAIR IS A GOD SENT GIFT. IF I HAVE TO HAVE MY BODY CARRIED TO THE FROM BY A MASS OF PEOPLE I WILL!!!!!!!!

This Too Shall Pass...

Those words linger in my head always. Days come and go, some harder that others. Today has been a hard day. As I am emotionally and physically weak today very fiber in my body rather be at home, in my bed.
“The ache for home lives in all of us, the safe place where we can go as we are and not be questioned.”
- Maya Angelou

Please pray for my family for we have lost a member. My uncle Larry passed away this morning. Also pray for our dear family friends The Brogle’s and Wayne’s Lloyd is having some heath complications.

“Faith is like electricity. You can't see it, but you can see the light.”

Guess What!?!?!?

Im selling Avon and Mark!!!!
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Has seen better days

I hate when I have really bad Mondays, it’s foreshadowing the coming up week. I've had a rough couple of days; look at me wrong and tears will begin to well up in my eyes. I'm at this point where I am unhappy…everyday.

I have so many thoughts running through my head I can’t keep them straight.

My dad is a low life and if it wasn’t for my nieces I would disown him like he disowned my sister and I when we were babies.

I hate my job…I just really want to do what makes me happy.

I wish I had money for school…

I wish I didn’t feel so freakin alone

I wish for change….of any kind. I've been in this same pattern for so long I can hardly stand it.

I don’t understand why I let my dad get to me. He’s the same asshole he’s always been but yet I keep thinking maybe he will change.

Its days like these where I really miss my Pap. I try to remember him, recall some of the memories he shared but all I keep thinking about is him laying in that casket with my hands on his hard cold chest and felling my knees give out as I hit the floor, screaming for some kind of relief from all the pain. I wish that wasn’t what I thought about each time I think about my Pap. I love him more that anything in this world and I knew he loved me like I was really his granddaughter or daughter for that matter.

I don’t know anymore… I understand we learn from all the things we go through in life but is all this heart wrenching pain necessary? I just wish God would give me some kind of answer. I'm beginning to loose faith…on everything. I feel like I am just space taking up a fraction of this dying earth. I want to make a difference. I want to make my life worth while but it seems the only way to accomplish any of that you must have money…I don’t have money.

I know that Makayla will pass very soon. I also know that when this happens I loose it completely. I'm not sure if I can prepare myself for loosing her. Is there anyway you can prepare yourself for the death of a loved one, let alone a child? I pray god gives me strength…more than usual.

I feel like I'm half here, the rest of my body in pieces while the reaming half beings to chip away. It’s hard to feel yourself crumble with no idea how to stop it from happening, to keep whole. Pray, pray everyday for my low life dad, more my beautiful fighting niece, and for myself, who keeps trying to find the light.

How cute is this!

Rainy Thursday

I feel pretty crappy today. I believe I have the start of a cold, hopefully. I wouldnt be very pleased if I were Kentucky's first care of the Swine...hopefully not. egh. I am pretty bummed that it is supposed to rain all weekend long. I am off Sunday and would love to go to Sugar Creek. I love summer! Im am not quite sure how I will balance the summer life with all the work that I do. Hopefully I'll be able to pull through it because summer is too sweet to let it pass you by. I wish I were able to see out of a window at the office. I am enclosed by walls which never allows be to see the current situation outside. If I am going to sit behind a desk all day I much rather it be by a window.

On a side note I can NOT believe that Adam was in the bottom 2 last night!!! What is wrong with America?!?!?! He's talented, more than any other contestant on that show.

I went to sleep while watching AI last night. Woke up to turn my tv off just as they anounced who was going home. So I went to bed a little earlier than usual. Now i am beating myself up to stay awak. I wish that my job wasn't so boring. I wish I could go to school...to do what I love. Hoping that somehow, God willing, I will move on soon. I just have to find that money to do so.