Dead

Well this had been by far the one of the worst weeks Ive had in a long time. Everything seems to be falling apart. I find myself feeling dead. I'm trying to find something to bring me back to life. Ive been so upset all week. I need a break. some kind of getaway or something. Its like my days are longer and my nights are never ending. I don't even know who I am anymore. So unsatisfied with my life right now. All i know is this is not who i wanted to be. I need something new and exciting...I just feel like I have to get out of this horrid place before I can find it. I'm not at the point in my life where I can. I just want to, somehow be happy. Thanks all I want...I just want to feel alive again.