A new week ahead...

First of all I feel like I haven't wrote on my blog in forever. Its something I feel I need to do. Its just hard some days finding the time. I have dyed my hair again this weekend. I love it! I'm not sure if its the actual color that I love but the excitement of something new and fresh that i love even more. My life thrives on change....positive change that is. I love change, it makes me so happy....kind of like shoes. Sometimes I wonder how out of control can I let my shoe obsession get before it comes a problem. I had decided that I needed to find happiness in something else rather than a person...I have found bliss but they're materialistic items. When i buy a new pair of shoes I'm the happiest person alive. Its like someone cut the light on in my dark and sad world. My mom laughs at me for this shoe obsession but honestly its the best kind of happy Ive felt in a long time.

I miss high school so much. I miss feeling alive. I felt so alive each day i entered that building. Wither I was depressed or on an all time high,I felt alive; rather than this dead and uselessness I feel now. Being in high school it allowed me to feel raw emotion. As terrifying as those feeling felt its better than this funk I've been in lately. It was a life worth living. Plus i miss my friends. All of them. Its not how it used to be at all and I would give up everything I have at this moment in life to relive my senior year, for it was by far the best year of my life.

I was talking to Kourt, Des, and Brit last night about our future plans for our lives. When i really sit down and think about my life I pretty much know what I want to do and when. Here is an idea of my goals I have.

In 2 years join the peace corp. which is a term of 27 months straight.
Come back go to beauty school.
Move to a big city (Chicago hopefully)
Be an awesome hardcore stylist and bar tend at a trendy glamorous club/bar
Get married when I'm 30 and have kids shortly after.

It might be a little far fetched but that's my dream life and I'll do everything in my power to get there...exactly where i want to be