Good Morning!

I have to say first that I am super excited about this week! I love Thanksgiving! Its like the kick off of the holidays. I love not only the food but the SHOPPING! Im pumped that the holiday is here.

Oh what a weekend! The old Nicole came back for a small visit. I think she'd been gone so long she couldn't control herself. haha! Friday night was crazy but I needed a little crazy, it made life exciting for one night.

I am ready for change. I want to be able to feel alive again. I feel so dull, like Im just here taking up space. Where do I go to find change? Im limited to what i have to work with. I have to work, so Im forced with time for change. There are some aspects of my life that i love and wouldn't want any differently but with those there comes the life Im tired of living.

What needs the most change is my love life I guess you could say. Im so done talking about him and having to explain how i feel. I love him more that life its self but i almost feel as if i need something new. Dont get me wrong, I think that if our relationship was perfect, exactly how I've always wanted it, than it would be new and exciting every day. I cant seem to pick the pieces up off the floor; either to put them back together or to throw them away.