No Surgery!

Well my infection seems to be getting better. I didn't have to go see the surgeon at all! They gave me another shot, the same one they gave me last night. They give then in my back towards my hip, in a joint. It hurts like total hell. I seem to me having muscle spasms. Hope they will ware off soon. Im still not for sure what kind of infection it is exactly, my test results have came back yet.

So how can something so wrong feel so right and make you happy? I did give in, however it was worth is. Its like a sweet addiction that I have no control over. Ive come to realize that I don't have control for many things but the things I can control I will. I'll control them for me and yes while making the choices I might forget about the future consequences but I refuse to live another moment in life embracing it. Last night was just a series of moments that fill me and the emptiness that surrounds. Those kinds of moments are the ones I live for. Where you can feel you heart beating in the depth of you stomach and it doesnt matter if its gonna bite my ass one day because I truly believe everything happens for a reason. The exquisite moments are the ones Im going to remember and the bad moments are just another lesson learned, making me more wise.


“Happiness is not a brilliant climax to years of grim struggle and anxiety. It is a long succession of little decisions simply to be happy in the moment.”
J. Donald Walters